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  • #1220937
    Avatar1984
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    @PhilKmorgan 363919 wrote:

    According to your viewpoint, it’s all a waste of time then ??

    According to my view point I have sever clinical depression which I am doing my best to sort out (including giving up all drugs, taking over 10 different anti depressant medications over 2 years and going onto a therapy course that I attend twice a week for a year) and while I may view things as a waste of time and pointless I am aware that it is due to my illness.

    I was feeling low and hoped some of the people I am more friendly on here could suggest a few activity’s to keep me busy. Having depression however I find it hard to find the desire to take up the suggestions or to view them positivity.

    Why any of this seems to offend you I have no idea…

    #1220848
    AvatarPhilKmorgan
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    @1984 363925 wrote:

    According to my view point I have sever clinical depression which I am doing my best to sort out (including giving up all drugs, taking over 10 different anti depressant medications over 2 years and going onto a therapy course that I attend twice a week for a year) and while I may view things as a waste of time and pointless I am aware that it is due to my illness.

    I was feeling low and hoped some of the people I am more friendly on here could suggest a few activity’s to keep me busy. Having depression however I find it hard to find the desire to take up the suggestions or to view them positivity.

    Why any of this seems to offend you I have no idea…

    OK, I didn’t know you had severe clinical depression and wish you all the best in terms of getting rid of it.

    #1220859
    AvatarTank Girl
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    @1984 363885 wrote:

    So far in my life I have largely enjoyed eating food.

    how about a cookery course? or a blog about what you like to eat, take a photo of what you eat ever day…

    I’m curretnly doing 2 blogs (dont actually know how I get people to look at em yet – but will work it out :wink:)
    One is a record of my paintings and the other is photos of things I enjoy – parties, festies, holidays etc..

    (and they’re free :weee:)

    @1984 363898 wrote:

    ugh Sudoku is the most pointless annoying waste of time in history!

    oooohhhh!!!

    I love suduko, takes me a bit of time to get back into it after a break – I go mad at it for a few days then stop – etc

    @PhilKmorgan 363914 wrote:

    The more you look for negativity, the more you will find it and get sucked into a negative mindset, like a self fulfilling prophecy

    and I do agree with this – I know you have depression – but on this thread it seems you are poo-pooing most suggestions off the bat? I may be wrong but you did seem to ask for suggestions……… Just my take on it?

    #1220938
    Avatar1984
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    @PhilKmorgan 363931 wrote:

    OK, I didn’t know you had severe clinical depression and wish you all the best in terms of getting rid of it.

    tbh mate just because I have a technical diagnosis doesn’t give you the right to talk to people like that. If I was someone who wasn’t so aware of what was wrong with me and I had someone like you telling me to go kill myself because of the way I was feeling it would be less than helpful.

    However its a free world and you have a right to say whatever you like.

    Anyway. END.

    #1220849
    AvatarPhilKmorgan
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    For me there’s always a choice about whether to take a positive or negative view of life. I guess you lack the ability to make this conscious choice and need to /or want to filter everything through a negative lens – a question about interpretation and what is reality. Even though you have an illness, you must see the irrationality of it.

    #1220939
    Avatar1984
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    @PhilKmorgan 363936 wrote:

    For me there’s always a choice about whether to take a positive or negative view of life. I guess you lack the ability to make this conscious choice and need to /or want to filter everything through a negative lens – a question about interpretation and what is reality. Even though you have an illness, you must see the irrationality of it.

    Yes I see it is irrational hence how I know I am ill and why I seek help.

    #1220834
    AvatarGeneral Lighting
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    its not at all easy as “trying to think positive” – especially as there really isn’t that much positive going on in the Western World and particularly in SE England even if there is money (which is one reason why I got out of there).

    1984 is in the same situation a lot of ravers are, everything he did what was fun has either turned to shit or is classed as illlegal or just plain scummy behaviour, and then for whatever reason it stopped being fun.

    this happened to me some time at the end of 2005, but luckily I was offered a new job and I dealt with it by leaving the area I was in, leaving most of my friends behind and putting my effort into my job even though it wasn’t “fun” or “creative”, it paid off in the end and my life is now the best it has ever been. there is nothing wrong with having a so-called “negative” view of the way things are, sometimes you have to face up to the fact life is fairly shit and the only bright side is the fact you’re still alive, you’ve not been banged up or sectioned, you’ve still got friends and that you have money / a house / food etc.

    Sometimes you have to forget about unattainable ambitions or the past and just accept things as they are – even if thats as good as it gets its still a very positive thing.

    #1220940
    Avatar1984
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    @Tank Girl 363932 wrote:

    and I do agree with this – I know you have depression – but on this thread it seems you are poo-pooing most suggestions off the bat? I may be wrong but you did seem to ask for suggestions……… Just my take on it?

    I agree I did view them negatively but I was just being honest and I did say I would think about them. I do intend to give them all serious thought and am grateful for all the suggestions.

    But as I have said I do regret the post as it is sum what hard to have a conversation about it when I have depression as I do view everything in a negative way. Its just hard sometimes not to want help from your peers. I forget myself sometimes.

    ps I certainly didn’t ask for ideas just so I could poo poo (blackadder!) them I really do want to try and find something I can do. Hate the way depression taints everything to the point where you cannot even have a normal conversation about hobbys without having to try and censor yourself. My responses were probably quite irritating though but I did try and keep it light hatred. Oh how I wish I never asked the question in the first place, once again I find myself wishing I was Dr Who

    #1220850
    AvatarPhilKmorgan
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    @General Lighting 363938 wrote:

    1984 is in the same situation a lot of ravers are, everything he did what was fun has either turned to shit or is classed as illlegal or just plain scummy behaviour, and then for whatever reason it stopped being fun.

    I did all these things in my 20s but don’t go harping on about misery at every opportunity.

    #1220886
    Avatarjoshd96320
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    actually 1984, i find you rather quirky and interesting ๐Ÿ™‚ which is a complement, because you are not generic.

    #1220835
    AvatarGeneral Lighting
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    @PhilKmorgan 363943 wrote:

    @General Lighting 363938 wrote:

    1984 is in the same situation a lot of ravers are, everything he did what was fun has either turned to shit or is classed as illlegal or just plain scummy behaviour, and then for whatever reason it stopped being fun.

    QUOTE]

    I did all these things in my 20s but don’t go harping on about misery at every opportunity.

    I still party occasionally but I can understand why people often burn out – TBH a lot of the so called “happy” people have as well (particularly a lot of the current SE England raver crew) but are in denial about how self-destructive their lifes and lifestyles are. 1984 is one of the lucky ones as he is trying to help himself out…

    #1220851
    AvatarPhilKmorgan
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    @General Lighting 363949 wrote:

    @PhilKmorgan 363943 wrote:

    I still party occasionally but I can understand why people often burn out – TBH a lot of the so called “happy” people have as well (particularly a lot of the current SE England raver crew) but are in denial about how self-destructive their lifes and lifestyles are. 1984 is one of the lucky ones as he is trying to help himself out…

    You would be surprised how many over 30s were at Scumoween.

    #1220836
    AvatarGeneral Lighting
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    @PhilKmorgan 363952 wrote:

    @General Lighting 363949 wrote:

    You would be surprised how many over 30s were at Scumoween.

    I probably know a fair few of them ๐Ÿ˜‰

    would have come but its about ยฃ40 to get to London on the train, then you’ve got the entry price and cost of party supplies on top of that, and the recovery time from a big rave impacts on my work performance – I still like partying but just got different priorities in my life now.

    #1220941
    Avatar1984
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    @joshd96320 363945 wrote:

    actually 1984, i find you rather quirky and interesting ๐Ÿ™‚ which is a complement, because you are not generic.

    cheers man that’s very kind of you

    #1220852
    AvatarPhilKmorgan
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    @General Lighting 363956 wrote:

    @PhilKmorgan 363952 wrote:

    I probably know a fair few of them ๐Ÿ˜‰

    would have come but its about ยฃ40 to get to London on the train, then you’ve got the entry price and cost of party supplies on top of that, and the recovery time from a big rave impacts on my work performance – I still like partying but just got different priorities in my life now.

    Depending on your location, you might be able take the megabus to London. I’m also a bit older, but defo very very much still up 4 it. Of course, I could always become a normal responsible adult… one lump of sugar or two old chap …

    #1220860
    AvatarTank Girl
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    @PhilKmorgan 363952 wrote:

    You would be surprised how many over 30s were at Scumoween.

    mate – most of the parties I been to recenlty – its been great as average age 30 – 40 – 50+

    last one – fucking freezing in a field (I was prepaired with thermals :laugh_at: – showing me age!!!)
    and 2 younger girls had obviously been told they were going to a ‘party‘ and were in pretty dresses, bare legs, and heels… poor things they were obviously freezing thier tits off!!!! ๐Ÿ˜‰ and findin the uneven floor rather difficult to dance on :crazy:

    #1220853
    AvatarPhilKmorgan
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    @1984 363957 wrote:

    cheers man that’s very kind of you

    I’m a bit tongue in cheek sometimes, and didn’t really mean any disrespect to you 1984. Also, yes you break the mould.

    #1220837
    AvatarGeneral Lighting
    Moderator

    @PhilKmorgan 363963 wrote:

    @General Lighting 363956 wrote:

    Depending on your location, you might be able take the megabus to London. I’m also a bit older, but defo very very much still up 4 it. Of course, I could always become a normal responsible adult… one lump of sugar or two old chap …

    The megabus don’t go anywhere near Ipswich and the other coaches are run by National Express who run the trains so of course they’re the same price…

    If I still lived in Reading still I’d be tempted, but its just not as much of a interest to me as it once was. Still occasionally turn up at legal local events in my area when they happen.

    #1220942
    Avatar1984
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    @PhilKmorgan 363966 wrote:

    I’m a bit tongue in cheek sometimes, and didn’t really mean any disrespect to you 1984. Also, yes you break the mould.

    Its all good I myself have a tendency towards dark humour and sarcasm that is hard to convey on the internet. *shrugs* you still not going to get a Christmas card though.

    I am starting to worry however that I come across as some kind of freak with all this mould braking stuff!

    #1220854
    AvatarPhilKmorgan
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    @General Lighting 363969 wrote:

    The megabus don’t go anywhere near Ipswich and the other coaches are run by National Express who run the trains so of course they’re the same price…

    If I still lived in Reading still I’d be tempted, but its just not as much of a interest to me as it once was. Still occasionally turn up at legal local events in my area when they happen.

    I think there’s another scum party on 5-Dec, tbh the last one really had an edge 2it that would be difficult to find otherwise.

    #1220861
    AvatarTank Girl
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    @1984 363973 wrote:

    I am starting to worry however that I come across as some kind of freak with all this mould braking stuff!

    nah not a freak,

    unique – innit!!! :laugh_at:

    #1220887
    Avatarjoshd96320
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    @General Lighting 363969 wrote:

    @PhilKmorgan 363963 wrote:

    The megabus don’t go anywhere near Ipswich and the other coaches are run by National Express who run the trains so of course they’re the same price…

    If I still lived in Reading still I’d be tempted, but its just not as much of a interest to me as it once was. Still occasionally turn up at legal local events in my area when they happen.

    did u go to evolution / unity twenty free linkup @ caribbean club? i cant believe i forgot about it .. ๐Ÿ™ ๐Ÿ™ : (

    #1220838
    AvatarGeneral Lighting
    Moderator

    when was that? I refuse to use facebook and the dudes what normally tell me about it are travelling in foreign lands so I don’t know, unless it was the one what relocated to that pub near Eye…

    #1220862
    AvatarTank Girl
    Participant

    @PhilKmorgan 363976 wrote:

    I think there’s another scum party on 5-Dec, tbh the last one really had an edge 2it that would be difficult to find otherwise.

    oh, again I’m off – but ooop north,

    luckily there’s a little (legal) party there to go to on the 5th too ๐Ÿ˜‰

    #1220888
    Avatarjoshd96320
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    @General Lighting 363980 wrote:

    when was that? I refuse to use facebook and the dudes what normally tell me about it are travelling in foreign lands so I don’t know, unless it was the one what relocated to that pub near Eye…

    was 21 november, mainly advertised thru facebook

    rig looked stunning

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