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  • #1041833
    AvatarDoubleDrop
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    im jus wondering if you can think of a couple things in your lives so far that has changed you for good or bad, choices and what not…… i can think of quite a few things that has made me who i am so what about you guys?? :bounce_fl

    #1115004
    Avatarstarlaugh
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    Well i wouldn’t change the bad things as they have taught me lessons on life and the good things are well…. good.

    Everything that has ever happened to me has made me who i am raaa

    #1135360
    Avatarstarlaugh
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    Well i wouldn’t change the bad things as they have taught me lessons on life and the good things are well…. good.

    Everything that has ever happened to me has made me who i am raaa

    #1115009
    AvatarDoubleDrop
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    so you cant think of like a major thing that completely changed your outlook or an experience gone wrong??

    #1135365
    AvatarDoubleDrop
    Participant

    so you cant think of like a major thing that completely changed your outlook or an experience gone wrong??

    #1115005
    Avatarstarlaugh
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    Oh there are loads,

    Fucking up on drugs when i was younger, running away from all my family and bumming about for a few months, leaving everything i knew to make a new life in Oxford, Quitting being a chef and getting an office job, admitting i was wrong and patching up the differences with family,

    It seems easyer to remember some of the bad things, but the good things seem harder to remember. There are probably as many good things as there are bad

    #1135361
    Avatarstarlaugh
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    Oh there are loads,

    Fucking up on drugs when i was younger, running away from all my family and bumming about for a few months, leaving everything i knew to make a new life in Oxford, Quitting being a chef and getting an office job, admitting i was wrong and patching up the differences with family,

    It seems easyer to remember some of the bad things, but the good things seem harder to remember. There are probably as many good things as there are bad

    #1114993
    AvatarGeneral Lighting
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    getting into the rave scene – having loads of fun but watching at least a third of the people I know totally fuck up on the way, but somehow surviving and carrying on..

    after the dot com crash when IT jobs were hard to get, working for the Civil Service for 3.5 years was also an eye-opener; after I had spent so many years cursing the Government, it turned out to be the only organisation willing to offer me a job after I had taken a whole year out from employment partying hard! –

    I couldn’t see any other country than Britain treating a rebellious person like that, and had I not got employment at that time I reckon I could easily have decided to do crime to fund myself, as I felt angry that my skills were being ignored just because I had dared to rebel for a bit..

    (I got loads of interviews for private sector IT companies, second interviews but always fell at the last hurdle and I think it was because of the employment gap, they didn’t like the thought that someone could dare to not work for so long)..

    I couldn’t believe that in the end it was actually the Govt who got me back on my feet – in return I worked hard at that job, even giving up partying for a year so I could concentrate a bit more on work – and the experience I gained helped me get an even better job when my contract finally ended (was supposed to be 2 weeks, ended up being 3.5 years :laugh_at:)

    Moving out of Reading (although it was unexpected) has helped me a lot as well, even though Ipswich isn’t the prettiest of places and is probably best known for footy and dead prostitutes, the surrounding areas are far nicer than SE England.

    Plus getting away from the more full-on aspects of the party scene and concentrating more on “other life stuff” whilst still being able to participate in it when I want has helped me loads… (was getting into ketamine a bit back in Reading, after years of not liking the stuff, and even then I didn’t really enjoy it but it was a way of blotting out the paranoia/worries I had about being nicked for organising parties, helping squat buildings etc)

    #1135350
    AvatarGeneral Lighting
    Moderator

    getting into the rave scene – having loads of fun but watching at least a third of the people I know totally fuck up on the way, but somehow surviving and carrying on..

    after the dot com crash when IT jobs were hard to get, working for the Civil Service for 3.5 years was also an eye-opener; after I had spent so many years cursing the Government, it turned out to be the only organisation willing to offer me a job after I had taken a whole year out from employment partying hard! –

    I couldn’t see any other country than Britain treating a rebellious person like that, and had I not got employment at that time I reckon I could easily have decided to do crime to fund myself, as I felt angry that my skills were being ignored just because I had dared to rebel for a bit..

    (I got loads of interviews for private sector IT companies, second interviews but always fell at the last hurdle and I think it was because of the employment gap, they didn’t like the thought that someone could dare to not work for so long)..

    I couldn’t believe that in the end it was actually the Govt who got me back on my feet – in return I worked hard at that job, even giving up partying for a year so I could concentrate a bit more on work – and the experience I gained helped me get an even better job when my contract finally ended (was supposed to be 2 weeks, ended up being 3.5 years :laugh_at:)

    Moving out of Reading (although it was unexpected) has helped me a lot as well, even though Ipswich isn’t the prettiest of places and is probably best known for footy and dead prostitutes, the surrounding areas are far nicer than SE England.

    Plus getting away from the more full-on aspects of the party scene and concentrating more on “other life stuff” whilst still being able to participate in it when I want has helped me loads… (was getting into ketamine a bit back in Reading, after years of not liking the stuff, and even then I didn’t really enjoy it but it was a way of blotting out the paranoia/worries I had about being nicked for organising parties, helping squat buildings etc)

    #1115010
    AvatarDoubleDrop
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    fair play, i think alot of us(PV) have so much in common its quite strange, ive moved all over england and had countless jobs, even working for the BA and managing a pub etc and im only 21, ive partied hard and done copius amounts of drugs already and believe it has done me more good than harm. i think of myself as not an everyday person because of my mentality towards things. I got into such a bad khole when living at my old house, i was watching fifth element wit the guys i lived wit, mustve done a few grams between us and when it came to the fighting scene i thought it was for real, i ran out the room army shuffled down the corridor and hid round the corner, i crawled up my stairs and managed to get in the bathroom, while i was going for a piss i kept thinking i was in a space kinda room, i turned round and looked in the mirror and saw myself melting away lol and then i saw me cat come in and then i was the same size as a cat walking round for a bit and then back to being tall again, keot on like this for about 10 mins and then ended up in my room looking at the cieling which seemed like a conveyor belt going round and round…. :crazy: then i was thinking this aint real.. then i heard another voice ‘ this aint real ‘ then another and another when i looked round there were about 5-6 of me all saying your not real…. i freaked out and started to panic thinking reality doesnt exist and all that balls i put my hand against the wall and it started to sink into the wall. I was rushing around trying to test my reality and surroundings but in the end all i could do was spit into my hands to feel :yakk: and then after about an hour of being on a different planet i went back to watch the end of the film and did another line….. one of many stories lol raaa

    #1135366
    AvatarDoubleDrop
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    fair play, i think alot of us(PV) have so much in common its quite strange, ive moved all over england and had countless jobs, even working for the BA and managing a pub etc and im only 21, ive partied hard and done copius amounts of drugs already and believe it has done me more good than harm. i think of myself as not an everyday person because of my mentality towards things. I got into such a bad khole when living at my old house, i was watching fifth element wit the guys i lived wit, mustve done a few grams between us and when it came to the fighting scene i thought it was for real, i ran out the room army shuffled down the corridor and hid round the corner, i crawled up my stairs and managed to get in the bathroom, while i was going for a piss i kept thinking i was in a space kinda room, i turned round and looked in the mirror and saw myself melting away lol and then i saw me cat come in and then i was the same size as a cat walking round for a bit and then back to being tall again, keot on like this for about 10 mins and then ended up in my room looking at the cieling which seemed like a conveyor belt going round and round…. :crazy: then i was thinking this aint real.. then i heard another voice ‘ this aint real ‘ then another and another when i looked round there were about 5-6 of me all saying your not real…. i freaked out and started to panic thinking reality doesnt exist and all that balls i put my hand against the wall and it started to sink into the wall. I was rushing around trying to test my reality and surroundings but in the end all i could do was spit into my hands to feel :yakk: and then after about an hour of being on a different planet i went back to watch the end of the film and did another line….. one of many stories lol raaa

    #1115002
    Avatar665
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    *Car accident at the age of 13…came back to life after 3 days in coma…never could be the same after that;I still think death can be fun,waiting for a definitive proof .I can’t cry no more when someone die,even if very close or familiy…

    *Datura experiment at the age of 16…came back to life after 12 hours walking thrue my most awful nightmares turned into reality.Made me aware of the darkest side of human,and accepting it as a permanent part of myself and others.

    *72h on an LSD(and others) total trip at the age of 18;I died and re-born,and since have a kind golden seed deep in my heart.Made me forgot fear and quit everything(school,family,GF),and seek my life by myself.Nothing is important,but everything is.

    #1135358
    Avatar665
    Participant

    *Car accident at the age of 13…came back to life after 3 days in coma…never could be the same after that;I still think death can be fun,waiting for a definitive proof .I can’t cry no more when someone die,even if very close or familiy…

    *Datura experiment at the age of 16…came back to life after 12 hours walking thrue my most awful nightmares turned into reality.Made me aware of the darkest side of human,and accepting it as a permanent part of myself and others.

    *72h on an LSD(and others) total trip at the age of 18;I died and re-born,and since have a kind golden seed deep in my heart.Made me forgot fear and quit everything(school,family,GF),and seek my life by myself.Nothing is important,but everything is.

    #1115003
    AvatarMisterDuck
    Participant

    nothing specific really, like not one incident

    but, learning from my many mistakes

    and repeating them

    and learning again

    i’m still doing it and shaping my character tbh so who knows

    #1135359
    AvatarMisterDuck
    Participant

    nothing specific really, like not one incident

    but, learning from my many mistakes

    and repeating them

    and learning again

    i’m still doing it and shaping my character tbh so who knows

    #1114992
    AvatarAnonymous

    the drugs, and ex boyfriends, unfortunately.

    luckily i’ve got enough time left to change it 🙂

    #1135349
    AvatarAnonymous

    the drugs, and ex boyfriends, unfortunately.

    luckily i’ve got enough time left to change it 🙂

    #1115001
    AvatarTank Girl
    Participant

    For the good: Aspects of the ‘party scene’ helped me come out of my shell…

    Used to be incrediably shy and could come across ( Was told this years later) as rude and arrogant, as would not let people close inorder to self preserve,
    having enbraced certain aspects of the ‘scene’ found my confidence to interact more freely (some would say false confidence) with people and this began to spill out into other social situations..

    For the bad: went rather nutty :crazy:

    #1135357
    AvatarTank Girl
    Participant

    For the good: Aspects of the ‘party scene’ helped me come out of my shell…

    Used to be incrediably shy and could come across ( Was told this years later) as rude and arrogant, as would not let people close inorder to self preserve,
    having enbraced certain aspects of the ‘scene’ found my confidence to interact more freely (some would say false confidence) with people and this began to spill out into other social situations..

    For the bad: went rather nutty :crazy:

    #1114997
    AvatarquietRIOT
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    Life…sorry …erm..my kids…taught me so much …..:love: bless their cotton socks …music in a big way always ….;Love + sex …chocolate,wild nites…:laugh_at: :bounce_fl

    #1135353
    AvatarquietRIOT
    Participant

    Life…sorry …erm..my kids…taught me so much …..:love: bless their cotton socks …music in a big way always ….;Love + sex …chocolate,wild nites…:laugh_at: :bounce_fl

    #1114994
    Avatargloballoon
    Participant

    a few things that have given me (what I think is) a good perspective on life…

    growing up and my family fostering other kids whose family weren’t able to look after them

    being homeless

    living in a warzone

    becoming a parent

    #1135351
    Avatargloballoon
    Participant

    a few things that have given me (what I think is) a good perspective on life…

    growing up and my family fostering other kids whose family weren’t able to look after them

    being homeless

    living in a warzone

    becoming a parent

    #1114999
    AvatarAngel
    Moderator

    The previous 37 years of my life have made me the person I am today..

    #1135355
    AvatarAngel
    Moderator

    The previous 37 years of my life have made me the person I am today..

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