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    vincentx90
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      i’m mentally dying through lack of smoke

      112th day of withdrawals from opioids…..

      i need help, i’m drinking and taking sleeping pills in desperation

      i ain’t in a good way

      death hath lost it’s sting…

      ๐Ÿ˜ฅ

      #1204744
      joshd96320
      Participant

        :group_hug

        get out and do something to take your mind off it ๐Ÿ™‚

        youve done great so far..

        #1204738
        Angel
        Moderator

          @vincentx90 345436 wrote:

          i’m mentally dying through lack of smoke

          112th day of withdrawals from opioids…..

          i need help, i’m drinking and taking sleeping pills in desperation

          i ain’t in a good way

          death hath lost it’s sting…

          ๐Ÿ˜ฅ

          Keep it up Vincent, be strong and have faith in yourself..

          you can do this :group_hug :love:

          #1204747
          vincentx90
          Participant

            Thanks Josh and Angel for your replies. I’m still feeling pretty messed up emotionally but fortunately i fell asleep before i could take more than a couple of sleeping pills and a small glass of scrumpy. I am feeling a bit better now.

            What triggered it was a visit to my brother. It reminded me why I distance myself from my family so much. He left me feeling unloved, uncared for by showing a complete disinterest in anything I had to say etc… Same old story, things never change…

            #1204748
            vincentx90
            Participant

              I’ve always been jealous of families that actually care for each other. Stupid I guess, as most of us probably have dysfunctional families like mine?!*!?

              #1204749
              vincentx90
              Participant

                The point with my brother being that I was all prepared to be open arms and catching up on old times. I wanted to show him love and I guess I was shocked that it didn’t matter to him. He showed me no love back. Just his usual emotionally sterile business approach that doesn’t change whether he is dealing with money or his own brother.

                At least I can stop dreaming about having happy family ties and return to what is my reality. Just takes a bit of getting used to as emotions have been on ice for so many years.

                #1204745
                joshd96320
                Participant

                  we are all you family :group_hug:

                  and we will come with open arms and comfy sofas when you feel it ๐Ÿ™‚

                  #1204739
                  Angel
                  Moderator

                    @vincentx90 345468 wrote:

                    I’ve always been jealous of families that actually care for each other. Stupid I guess, as most of us probably have dysfunctional families like mine?!*!?

                    most families are fcuked up some way or another, so many people just care about them self and moan about everything…
                    Guess you have to try and accept them as they are, even if they sucks, if you can’t do that, leave them.. :hopeless:

                    Sounds harsh but it don’t seems like they are good for you at the moment.. Can be different in 3 – 6 months time when you yourself feel better, but for now and for the rest of your life you need to think about Vincent, and he’s really all that matters.. Most important person in your life, is you..

                    Like Josh say.. We’re family and we care :group_hug

                    #1204750
                    vincentx90
                    Participant

                      Thanks for the good advice Angel ๐Ÿ™‚

                      #1204751
                      vincentx90
                      Participant

                        if only i could get green on prescription i could get through this a lot easier…

                        #1204740
                        Angel
                        Moderator

                          think a lot of people in your position feel that :group_hug

                          how are you today?

                          #1204752
                          vincentx90
                          Participant

                            not great Angel,

                            My ear infection is in full swing causing a lot of discomfort and general flu-like feeling.

                            I’m coming to terms with the situation with my brother. I called the kent mental health team and chatted to someone about it. What she said did make sense. Although, problem with my brother is that he never accepts that I have Aspergers and that it affects the way I talk/communicate. He always chooses to distrust me. I think he is paranoid and it is his problem not mine.

                            Still, I’m starting to turn it into a positive experience by learning from it.

                            Withdrawals are ‘mild’ these days but still bloody distressing. The numbness and disinterest in everything is enough to drive one insane. The only drug that helps is occasional THC when things get too depressingly numb. It takes me away from it all for an hour or two and reminds me life is ok.

                            If I don’t get some ‘meds’ soon I’m gonna end up on the psychiatric ward again.

                            I knocked myself out with so many sleepers and seroquel last night that I can’t even remember what I took. In fact, I can’t remember much at all from last night.

                            I’m tempted to take a handful more of seroquel and sleepers this morning and just knock myself out again. I’m stuck indoors with this ear infection so I can’t even get out and distract myself from the mental anguish of withdrawals.

                            Man, I just need weed. Weed really would solve all these problems right now.

                            I’ll probably end up going to the rougher side of town to try and score, then run the risk of being ripped off because no one knows me or mugged or some kind of unpleasant hassle…

                            #1204741
                            Angel
                            Moderator

                              @vincentx90 345528 wrote:

                              My ear infection is in full swing causing a lot of discomfort and general flu-like feeling.

                              Sorry to hear that, ear infections are a bitch :group_hug

                              I’m coming to terms with the situation with my brother. I called the kent mental health team and chatted to someone about it. What she said did make sense. Although, problem with my brother is that he never accepts that I have Aspergers and that it affects the way I talk/communicate. He always chooses to distrust me. I think he is paranoid and it is his problem not mine.

                              It can be hard for siblings finding out and accepting their brother/sister is sick, can sometimes lead to jealousy because the “sick” brother/sister get more attention than him/her-self, and that can be hard to understand, because their brother or sister is the same as before but now have a diagnose to why they are the way they are…. Not sure if it makes sense but that was the way my daughter acted when one of my twins were diagnosed with ADHD and we had to change everything for his sake to try and have a “normal” family life.

                              Still, I’m starting to turn it into a positive experience by learning from it.

                              Good :group_hug

                              Withdrawals are ‘mild’ these days but still bloody distressing. The numbness and disinterest in everything is enough to drive one insane. The only drug that helps is occasional THC when things get too depressingly numb. It takes me away from it all for an hour or two and reminds me life is ok.

                              You can do without if you have to.. try and be strong :group_hug

                              If I don’t get some ‘meds’ soon I’m gonna end up on the psychiatric ward again.

                              Will that be good or bad?
                              I know it’s a strange question but sometimes hospitals are the only places that can really help you

                              I knocked myself out with so many sleepers and seroquel last night that I can’t even remember what I took. In fact, I can’t remember much at all from last night.

                              Be careful please :group_hug

                              I’m tempted to take a handful more of seroquel and sleepers this morning and just knock myself out again. I’m stuck indoors with this ear infection so I can’t even get out and distract myself from the mental anguish of withdrawals.

                              Be strong :love:

                              Man, I just need weed. Weed really would solve all these problems right now.

                              Drugs don’t solve any problems :hopeless:

                              I’ll probably end up going to the rougher side of town to try and score, then run the risk of being ripped off because no one knows me or mugged or some kind of unpleasant hassle…

                              Please don’t Vincent, in the long run it’s not worth it :group_hug

                              #1204753
                              vincentx90
                              Participant

                                but smoking a bit of weed is less dangerous than getting physically addicted to sleeping pills and alcohol ๐Ÿ™

                                #1204742
                                Angel
                                Moderator

                                  I know ๐Ÿ™

                                  Please just take care of yourself, okay :love:

                                  #1204746
                                  joshd96320
                                  Participant

                                    @vincentx90 345546 wrote:

                                    but smoking a bit of weed is less dangerous than getting physically addicted to sleeping pills and alcohol ๐Ÿ™

                                    whats even less dangerous is having none of those at all, and you can do that too :love::group_hug

                                    #1204743
                                    p0ly
                                    Participant

                                      sorry to hear about ur struggle, you do not ‘need’ weed at all. i know it helps but you need to try to rid yourself of an altered concious

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