I can wholey sympathise with you Cath – and yes it is awful – and people question why motivation can be seen as poor to ‘better’ ones self :you_crazy

when I did my training I recieved what is called a bursary – and it worked out £2 per hour, (for 3 years)
and we were expected to study, and work shifts and out of this pay our rent, food, bills and transport to where ever they would put us on ‘placement’ – which could be anywhere all over london and croyden.
Yes I agreed to do it – but it doesnt mean it wasnt difficult –