Boobahhaha
18-03-2009, 06:15 AM
Well I had a good weekend.
:bounce_g::bounce_fl
I saw my ex J.
I was cold but friendly, if you can imagine that. He finally came over and talked to me and we made small talk. When he left he said bye and I nodded goodbye and went back into the house. Shortly after I leave and met up with him. First I hang with the neighbors then I ask his roommate if J is really sleeping.
Yes. He's told me to go over and wake him. I laugh. That exactly what I wanted to do.
:laugh_at:
I walk into the apartment. There is J laying down on the couch that he is almost too tall for. He is out. Cold water? Random yelling?
How should I wake him?
I almost poured cold water on him but didn't have the heart I just splashed him. Sitting down on the couch I lean in and in a stage whisper try to wake him.
"J...J. Wake up!"
I even pinch his ear a few times but he just rolls over. Fed up I grab his shoulders and try to turn him back around to face me.
" Wha...what are you doing?"
I laugh which I do when I'm nervous.
" Trying to jump you."
I say without thinking. He rolls over and grins at me. Now I'm sitting on top of him looking down at him. Its been too long. And we just stared at one another. A million things ran through my mind. Is he tripping? If so then where is he mentally? I knew he was his pupils were huge and his room mate had slipped and said something. Is he dangerous right now? I don't know how long we looked at one another but it seemed like a long time. Does he think I'm crazy?
:you_crazy
Why am I here?
" So how are you?" I ask. Blank stare.
" You okay?"
Blank stare.
" Should I go?" Blank stare.
" Are you even going to remember this?"
" Yes."
I was there because I've missed him and well the last time we had talked he had said some things that got me really thinking. And I missed him. Finally he says ...
" How did you get in here?"
I explained.
" He was suppose to lock the door."
Thinking seemed to be really hard for him. I think he was shaken to have woke up to me randomly on top of him asking if he was okay.
" Should I leave?"
Honestly, I almost did. He didn't say no so I stayed. There was a lot of staring. I had had some beers(and a joint) so I was a little goofy but not completely out of it. It almost seemed as if he was trying to figure out if I was really there or if it was just a dream that was insanely real. Then he kisses me. I kiss him back. It was warm and nice and well I needed it. It was a real kiss. Then he gets distracted by my shoes. Some reason he really likes these shoes. Holding my foot he says " You have little feet."
I smile, " Thanks.'
We have a short dialogue about my feet. I then compare my feet with his. Then he sees a pack of donuts on the table and picks them up, " Are these yours? Did you bring them? Where did they come from?"
I smile as I answer... he keeps asking and I keeping answering.
" Maybe they are your room mates."
I say. He nods and seems happy with that answer.
" But where did they come from?" Honestly he wouldn't stop about the damn donuts.
:crazy_diz
" Your room mate probably bought them and forgot about them."
More head nodding. Holding the pack of donuts in his hand he looks at me. I look back. I try to lay down. Long story short after a shower together I left him with one of my favorite Cd's. I leaning over to hug him secretly wanting to kiss him and he beats me to the punch and kisses me.
:wink:
Then I hugged him. We made plans to play chess. With my hand on the doorknob I opened the door a little too wide ( tipsy still a little) and smiled and said goodbye. He asks if I'll come back. I look at him... is he just saying that? He looks back at me waiting..."
Well, yeah"
Then I leave. I came home at an insane time and went straight to bed.
We both have feelings for one another. I want it to work but hey maybe we are too different. But how do I be his friend even though all I do is weed?
What would be good to do to start over as friends?
:bounce_g::bounce_fl
I saw my ex J.
I was cold but friendly, if you can imagine that. He finally came over and talked to me and we made small talk. When he left he said bye and I nodded goodbye and went back into the house. Shortly after I leave and met up with him. First I hang with the neighbors then I ask his roommate if J is really sleeping.
Yes. He's told me to go over and wake him. I laugh. That exactly what I wanted to do.
:laugh_at:
I walk into the apartment. There is J laying down on the couch that he is almost too tall for. He is out. Cold water? Random yelling?
How should I wake him?
I almost poured cold water on him but didn't have the heart I just splashed him. Sitting down on the couch I lean in and in a stage whisper try to wake him.
"J...J. Wake up!"
I even pinch his ear a few times but he just rolls over. Fed up I grab his shoulders and try to turn him back around to face me.
" Wha...what are you doing?"
I laugh which I do when I'm nervous.
" Trying to jump you."
I say without thinking. He rolls over and grins at me. Now I'm sitting on top of him looking down at him. Its been too long. And we just stared at one another. A million things ran through my mind. Is he tripping? If so then where is he mentally? I knew he was his pupils were huge and his room mate had slipped and said something. Is he dangerous right now? I don't know how long we looked at one another but it seemed like a long time. Does he think I'm crazy?
:you_crazy
Why am I here?
" So how are you?" I ask. Blank stare.
" You okay?"
Blank stare.
" Should I go?" Blank stare.
" Are you even going to remember this?"
" Yes."
I was there because I've missed him and well the last time we had talked he had said some things that got me really thinking. And I missed him. Finally he says ...
" How did you get in here?"
I explained.
" He was suppose to lock the door."
Thinking seemed to be really hard for him. I think he was shaken to have woke up to me randomly on top of him asking if he was okay.
" Should I leave?"
Honestly, I almost did. He didn't say no so I stayed. There was a lot of staring. I had had some beers(and a joint) so I was a little goofy but not completely out of it. It almost seemed as if he was trying to figure out if I was really there or if it was just a dream that was insanely real. Then he kisses me. I kiss him back. It was warm and nice and well I needed it. It was a real kiss. Then he gets distracted by my shoes. Some reason he really likes these shoes. Holding my foot he says " You have little feet."
I smile, " Thanks.'
We have a short dialogue about my feet. I then compare my feet with his. Then he sees a pack of donuts on the table and picks them up, " Are these yours? Did you bring them? Where did they come from?"
I smile as I answer... he keeps asking and I keeping answering.
" Maybe they are your room mates."
I say. He nods and seems happy with that answer.
" But where did they come from?" Honestly he wouldn't stop about the damn donuts.
:crazy_diz
" Your room mate probably bought them and forgot about them."
More head nodding. Holding the pack of donuts in his hand he looks at me. I look back. I try to lay down. Long story short after a shower together I left him with one of my favorite Cd's. I leaning over to hug him secretly wanting to kiss him and he beats me to the punch and kisses me.
:wink:
Then I hugged him. We made plans to play chess. With my hand on the doorknob I opened the door a little too wide ( tipsy still a little) and smiled and said goodbye. He asks if I'll come back. I look at him... is he just saying that? He looks back at me waiting..."
Well, yeah"
Then I leave. I came home at an insane time and went straight to bed.
We both have feelings for one another. I want it to work but hey maybe we are too different. But how do I be his friend even though all I do is weed?
What would be good to do to start over as friends?