bluepink_clefairy
06-08-2007, 08:49 PM
I can never decide whether I hate Ketamine or love it... and because of that it really intrigues me and I do it anyway because the experiences are all so odd, sometimes really pretty.. and sometimes (when I do that little bit too much) it's horrible but still an experience worth keeping in my memory because it's that detatched from reality that it's pretty anyway. (if that makes sense lol!)
Have written an interesting experience of mine of the latter below!
Probably my third time trying K, so I was not so sensible with it and I had drank a fair bit of wine. After my line I felt more and more drunk, declared I was going into the living room - almost falling over on the way - then I get stuff muddled a bit, I'm not sure if I sat in there a while before falling backwards whilst sitting and banging my head on the floor, or if that happened straight away. I also don't know if banging my head was the cause of why stuff went more weird, but am pretty sure it wasn't - it was just me not being very careful of the amount of Ketamine I took whilst being drunk.
In no specific order (due to memory being muddled up)... I remember seeing a silver kind of surface with silver gel-like (kind of the substance you would get if you melted a spoon?) patterns being formed... remember feeling wet on my face for a few seconds, just kept seeing patterns - assuming water was coming from my face somehow and spreading out onto this hard surface. So many voices, but could not pick any of them out.
And then, for ages I was seeing a very distorted world.. and was thinking that this was the real reality, the previous was a fake one and I had just peeled it off my view screen somehow to reveal this distorted world, full of fragments of muddled up memories of things and people from different times in my life - from the world I had believed up till then to be real. Messed up work place, seeing two people dancing (my friend Andrea was dancing throughout most of the day with some guy I hadn't seen before, so it's safe to say it was them), lots of twisted staircases similar to those in the film the Labyrinth, my friend Panda's head appeared and spoke to me a few times (no idea what he said, nor if it was because Panda was actually speaking to me in the real world which was why he appeared in my dream vision type thing), It was pretty chaotic. I remember wanting the old world back so much. And I remember how each part of the scene I was seeing was in levels, or I had to get through something (can't remember what) to be able to portal through into another more messed up scene. It was also very much like some sort of planned sequence, like the levels in a computer game, only I didn't know how to conquer the end level - I felt like I was going round and round in circles, just hoping the end portal would take me back to the reality which made sense to me. I very very faintly remember feeling hands on me to pick me up, but still couldn't open my eyes - although this may only be a reconstructed memory due to being told that people carried me to another room after the K had completely worn off.
I don't remember anything clear reality-wise until I was told to drink water by my friends Daisy and Panda, I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't open them properly for ages and got really distressed because I couldn't see anything apart from distorted shapes and light so bright it stung my eyes - and I really didn't know what the fuck was going on. At first I had it in my head that we were sitting in some oriental greenhouse, and then thought "I wonder if anyone got fucked up? It would be weird to forget things." When I realised it was me that went really weird and forgot stuff (still don't know how long for, maybe a few hours - no idea) I got even more confused and weirded out because I had never forgot stuff before whilst being under the influence. I like to be completely aware of what I'm doing all of the time - even if I remember stuff a bit blurry, I still like to know what's going on. Daisy and Panda told me to calm down and stuff, but I was still trying to open my eyes because I wanted to see so bad - I kept thinking I still wasn't yet in reality, that my eyes were tricking me and my ears were lying. I started to be able to see a little though, realising I was in a bathroom but it didn't seem like my friend's bathroom at all it felt different and I assumed I was in someone else's house for some reason.
Next thing I know I'm on a bed I have never seen before with a bike next to me.. I didn't know where Daisy had gone.. I knew Panda was still there because his voice kept fading in and out and he tried to explain to me I had K-holed and stuff but not to worry. It turned out they had moved me again to another room to sleep. After a while I managed to talk a bit better and explained I felt like stuff was wearing off so I would be OK soon I hoped. Not quite back in reality, but able to comprehend some things and move - Panda said we had to go because our taxi back to another friend's was here. I realised I was in Alice's house still, but everything still had a different edge to it - and I had never been in his flatmate's room before. I was told I had been sick, which I have no recollection of, although could associate it with my dream vision thing of the silver wet stuff coming from my face onto a silver hard surface. But I didn't know it was vomit then, and I have no recollection of it whatsoever from the reality world. So if I had done that and not known about it I don't know what else happened.
The taxi back was odd, I was still questioning reality and I wanted to cry because I didn't know how long it would be before it peeled away to reveal all the distorted things which made me feel pretty traumatised lol. I felt somewhat like I had just been pulled from the earth's foundation, like I was a spirit of nature or something which had been dragged into the dull greyness of the real world, but still felt a lot better that I was in something which made sense, and where the time's where in the sequence in which I knew them.
So yeah lol. That was my K-hole =]
Has anyone else K-holed? What was your experience like?
:love:
Have written an interesting experience of mine of the latter below!
Probably my third time trying K, so I was not so sensible with it and I had drank a fair bit of wine. After my line I felt more and more drunk, declared I was going into the living room - almost falling over on the way - then I get stuff muddled a bit, I'm not sure if I sat in there a while before falling backwards whilst sitting and banging my head on the floor, or if that happened straight away. I also don't know if banging my head was the cause of why stuff went more weird, but am pretty sure it wasn't - it was just me not being very careful of the amount of Ketamine I took whilst being drunk.
In no specific order (due to memory being muddled up)... I remember seeing a silver kind of surface with silver gel-like (kind of the substance you would get if you melted a spoon?) patterns being formed... remember feeling wet on my face for a few seconds, just kept seeing patterns - assuming water was coming from my face somehow and spreading out onto this hard surface. So many voices, but could not pick any of them out.
And then, for ages I was seeing a very distorted world.. and was thinking that this was the real reality, the previous was a fake one and I had just peeled it off my view screen somehow to reveal this distorted world, full of fragments of muddled up memories of things and people from different times in my life - from the world I had believed up till then to be real. Messed up work place, seeing two people dancing (my friend Andrea was dancing throughout most of the day with some guy I hadn't seen before, so it's safe to say it was them), lots of twisted staircases similar to those in the film the Labyrinth, my friend Panda's head appeared and spoke to me a few times (no idea what he said, nor if it was because Panda was actually speaking to me in the real world which was why he appeared in my dream vision type thing), It was pretty chaotic. I remember wanting the old world back so much. And I remember how each part of the scene I was seeing was in levels, or I had to get through something (can't remember what) to be able to portal through into another more messed up scene. It was also very much like some sort of planned sequence, like the levels in a computer game, only I didn't know how to conquer the end level - I felt like I was going round and round in circles, just hoping the end portal would take me back to the reality which made sense to me. I very very faintly remember feeling hands on me to pick me up, but still couldn't open my eyes - although this may only be a reconstructed memory due to being told that people carried me to another room after the K had completely worn off.
I don't remember anything clear reality-wise until I was told to drink water by my friends Daisy and Panda, I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't open them properly for ages and got really distressed because I couldn't see anything apart from distorted shapes and light so bright it stung my eyes - and I really didn't know what the fuck was going on. At first I had it in my head that we were sitting in some oriental greenhouse, and then thought "I wonder if anyone got fucked up? It would be weird to forget things." When I realised it was me that went really weird and forgot stuff (still don't know how long for, maybe a few hours - no idea) I got even more confused and weirded out because I had never forgot stuff before whilst being under the influence. I like to be completely aware of what I'm doing all of the time - even if I remember stuff a bit blurry, I still like to know what's going on. Daisy and Panda told me to calm down and stuff, but I was still trying to open my eyes because I wanted to see so bad - I kept thinking I still wasn't yet in reality, that my eyes were tricking me and my ears were lying. I started to be able to see a little though, realising I was in a bathroom but it didn't seem like my friend's bathroom at all it felt different and I assumed I was in someone else's house for some reason.
Next thing I know I'm on a bed I have never seen before with a bike next to me.. I didn't know where Daisy had gone.. I knew Panda was still there because his voice kept fading in and out and he tried to explain to me I had K-holed and stuff but not to worry. It turned out they had moved me again to another room to sleep. After a while I managed to talk a bit better and explained I felt like stuff was wearing off so I would be OK soon I hoped. Not quite back in reality, but able to comprehend some things and move - Panda said we had to go because our taxi back to another friend's was here. I realised I was in Alice's house still, but everything still had a different edge to it - and I had never been in his flatmate's room before. I was told I had been sick, which I have no recollection of, although could associate it with my dream vision thing of the silver wet stuff coming from my face onto a silver hard surface. But I didn't know it was vomit then, and I have no recollection of it whatsoever from the reality world. So if I had done that and not known about it I don't know what else happened.
The taxi back was odd, I was still questioning reality and I wanted to cry because I didn't know how long it would be before it peeled away to reveal all the distorted things which made me feel pretty traumatised lol. I felt somewhat like I had just been pulled from the earth's foundation, like I was a spirit of nature or something which had been dragged into the dull greyness of the real world, but still felt a lot better that I was in something which made sense, and where the time's where in the sequence in which I knew them.
So yeah lol. That was my K-hole =]
Has anyone else K-holed? What was your experience like?
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