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10-08-2009, 09:26 PM
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I'm struggling to regain the trust of my mum. She's adament that i'm still using and has forbid me from seeing my x girlfriend because she thinks she's the reason that I got on the gear. Maybe its partly true but we're boath clean now and she's really sick at the moment as she's having hep c treatment. I only wanted to borrow some money to catch the train and my mum went beserk at me telling me that she has no sympathy for either of us and shit. I haven't used since 2 wednesdays ago, and admitedly my mum caught me with a needle in my hand after I promised her I wasn't using. I can't regain her trust. I make a point of wearing t-shirts so people can see that I have no more track marks, but I just get told that I must be injecting somewhere else. I'm getting so wound up with being called a liar, it actually makes me want to use again cause i'm not getting any encouragement not to use I just get told i'm not telling the truth. I'm running out of steam. All I want is to be trusted to borrow some money to perhaps save my relationship wiith my x girlfriend which I really want to do. I've never felt the way I do about someone before. I could go on about her all day but I wont bore you. Anyway I'm just logging my thoughts at the moment I find it helps talking to people on here.
--- Beat the drum 
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#2
10-08-2009, 09:51 PM
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maybe you should show her this post.. it could help if shes that sort of person
otherwise, things dont happen in an instant, as you know with coming clean, and things arent gonna go your way, but just dont go backwards, youve done excellently and you know that whether your mum appreciates that or not, keep on pushing, 'break on through to the other side'  :--- The great masses of the people will more easily fall victim to a big lie than to a small one.
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10-08-2009, 10:06 PM
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Dude its fucking hard, i'm not your typical junkie, I used to wear a shirt and tie to work and i'm well educated and well spoken peole find it hard to believe that i'm on gear when I go to the clinic I get dodgy looks asif i'm undercover old bill and stuff, so i've had trouble proving myself a junkie and now i'm having worse trouble trying to get people to believe me that i'm clean. Staying away from gear for 12 days has been a really hard task. I'm looking for an excuse to score all the time. I've been to the doctor to try and get a vallium script but he won't let me have them cause i've got previous with drug abuse and all he will give me is poxy anti psycotic pills. To tell the truth if he would give me a valium script I wouldn't have any problems worrying about sleeping, which is one of the main reasons that I started using in the frist place.
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#4
10-08-2009, 10:19 PM
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keep it up, the1log. you've done well so far! just remember, the 2 weeks probably went slow from your point of view, but others might not percieve it as such a long time u have been clean, coz they were not having to deal with it in the same way. so it could take a wee bit longer than u thought
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11-08-2009, 05:04 PM
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I have no words of wisdom, which is pointless posting here really.
But i wanted to say SOMETHING. Just Keep going i guess. Even though im sure its a million times harder with people nagging on at cha. They'll realise sooner or later. X --- I should have been born fictional.
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11-08-2009, 07:12 PM
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and I dont mean to sound harsh / devils advocate but trust will take an ever so long time if ever for your mum to regain, as you say she found you recently when youd promised.... just think of how many promises you have made and not stuck to - her inability to trust you at the moment is appropriate, 2 weeks not using to you is a long time and a HUGE achievement but to her its only just 2 weeks.... stay strong - only you can choose not to use the pin
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11-08-2009, 08:07 PM
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It's next monday thats gonna be the real challenge cos thats when I get paid my worhtless doll money. last time I had spent it before I knew it. I'm a bit more determined not to do that this time cos I have got a bit more confidance not to use and know how to manage my time a bit better.I'm still searching for a job and I went to drug counciling today, but I think counciling is a waste of time, the womans obsessed with people having to be depressed cos they have chosen to take drugs. I took drugs because I wanted to try it.
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11-08-2009, 10:58 PM
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think of something you want that will take up the cash b4 you get it and as soon as you get paid spend it on the item that's not drugs (this way you have no time to go get h) at least this will get you over the next few weeks till your out of the initial phaze of actualy kicking it .. and may instill a healthy habit into your life like spending money on things you will have something to show for in the long run as oppsed to wasting it on smack - also sports is good .. occupys the mind and gets you healthy at the same time  hope you continue to stay clean and all goes well with your mum .. hope you keep up the good work dude --- "we all have problems, it's how we deal with them that defines who we are!" "People must begin to help one and other - we must begin to care!" "You're scared of mice and spiders, but oh-so-much greater is your fear that one day the two species will cross-breed to form an all-powerful race of mice-spiders who will immobilize human beings in giant webs in order to steal cheese" Messing around with all theese chemical rushes .. when natural highs come a whole lot cheeper!
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11-08-2009, 11:06 PM
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to be fair councilers try hard but they arent much help you have to do it for yourself
--- Nobodys Tighter Than A Ruff Ride Provider
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11-08-2009, 11:10 PM
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also i just had a thought ... if you wanna show your mum you are really trying mby you could let her look after the cash for you .. this way you won't be able to spunk it on gear and she will see that your not spending it on gear ...
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11-08-2009, 11:58 PM
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but as BitsNpeazes says - it is your choice at the end of the day, all they can do is help facilitate you If your not getting on with the one you have there should be a process where by you can change to someone else?
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12-08-2009, 12:07 AM
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12-08-2009, 10:18 AM
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DDDxx --- "I would never do crack... I would never do a drug named after a part of my own ass, okay?"
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12-08-2009, 04:28 PM
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different drug and probably was alot easier for me but iv not long ago about 3 weeks stoped doing coke it was taking over my life pretty much did it everyday even on my own at home i kn ow its sad but i couldnt help it for 4-5 months i used to be real big into bodybuilding when people saw me they knew that i was hooked on some sort of drug its so hard to break the habbit as much as you want to but after the first couple of weeks for me it got easier like you said at first i was looking for excuses to buy i stopped iv even pretty much stopped smoking weed now i can smoke when i choose after 10 years of smoking every day cos in my head i had to think of somethink you used to do that you loved and go do that thing mine was body building i been in the gym 3 weeks and put a stone on already cos when its a choice of food or drugs it used to be drugs like you i didnt see what it was doing to me but i could see what it did to my girlfriend of 9 years and i knew she would only stop if i did not sure if this helps you as i never tried h but maybe it will. barnzy
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12-08-2009, 05:25 PM
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12-08-2009, 05:29 PM
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12-08-2009, 05:52 PM
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The jumpin and shocks you are talkin about will carry on for a while yet,i used to get them terrible but they do go the more you body returns to normal.Keep up the good work,its a long and sometimes lonely road cumin off gear but when you finally achieve it you will feel like the proudest person in the world,trust me its worth all the sleepless nights.Take care hun,DDDxx
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12-08-2009, 06:52 PM
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Don't give in now!! you don't want to be going through it all again. dunno what to suggest to keep you busy,
keep up the good work though --- I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it.
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12-08-2009, 07:38 PM
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WRT your mum she is likely going to take a wee while to trust you - trust has to be earned back. Do you talk to her a lot about whats going on or do you feel she wont understand? Were you close before? ---
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12-08-2009, 08:08 PM
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Well i've told her everything which was the hardest thing i've ever done, but that was after she caught me with a needle in my arm. But no matter what I seem to say these days she thinks i'm lying, so now i've sort of started not to tell her so much, cos I just get a shitty answers from her. I'm not gonna use tonight anyway, it's too much hassle this time of night and also I aint got much money left and I don't get paid until monday and as poly said i'll be back to 0 days clean
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#23
12-08-2009, 08:10 PM
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Go away, go on a cheap shit holiday.
Where no matter what really, Even when you're tempted theres no one to go pick up from, and there are constant distractions. X
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12-08-2009, 09:15 PM
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have a wank, watch tv, draw, go for a walk, make food, chitty chat to us like kitty kat, make a chart and put a cross on it for every day you dont use, and spray it black and draw a raccoon on it for every time you do.
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12-08-2009, 09:47 PM
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